A good indicator that I’m trying to get through each day on my own strength, power, wisdom and might is when I arrive home completely spent. It’s an exhaustion that a good night’s sleep won’t remedy. In fact sleep often evades me because my mind is constantly on the go. I feel like I can’t turn it off.
Along with other changes in recent months, I am not able to listen to my IPod and partake of good solid Christian teaching as much as I used to. I desperately miss that. It fed my heart, mind and soul. Somehow I need to build that back into my daily life.
I think I’ve let the busyness and demands of life…work, home and responsibilities crowd God out…or assign Him to a small place that I will get to when I have the time. Ouch! Not good…not good at all.
Like any relationship…my relationship with God grows when I spend time with Him and listen to Him and share what’s going on with me. Trust Him with what I’m going through. Trust His counsel and be quick to obey.
It’s the time spent in prayer…or opening the Bible and reading with my ear inclined towards God.
You know that feeling when you are in love…and you hang on every word that comes out of your loved one’s mouth. You can’t wait to hear what they will say next. You treasure and value their advice because their wisdom is combined with love for you.
I feel like that’s what I’m missing with God. And I want it back…starting tonight. I want to hold on to Jesus and not let go.