Susan's Blog: Imperfect Forgiveness

Thursday, June 19, 2014

Imperfect Forgiveness

Just when I thought I’d moved beyond it

I see wounds from the past and brokenness

Still impacting me today

Time has moved on

As has the one who fell short

Leaving scars in their wake

This side of heaven

My questions will remain unspoken

“Why?” and “What were you thinking?” will not be answered

I wish I had been able to talk it through

Or hear “I’m sorry”

And confess my sins against them too

Lord I need to forgive completely

Not dredge it up again

Let the pain remain in the past, not feel it afresh

Lord, I need to follow Your example

Forgive completely, once and for all

Cancel their debt

Help me to remember

Not only did Jesus pay my sin debt in full

But He died for the sins of the world

You are lavish in grace, mercy and forgiveness

Not holding my sin debt against me

You have cast my sin into the sea of forgetfulness

I need to remember

Unforgiveness is a sin

Like all sin, I must repent of it

Show me how to live this out day by day

Help me to remember that You never waste my trials and pain

You are working things out according to Your perfect plan

Thank You God that Your forgiveness is not like mine

You forgive fully and completely, even to the uttermost

Heavenly Father, help me to be more like You

by Susan Wachtel

June 19, 2014

1 comment:

susanwalkergirl said...: Denise,

Thanks for taking the time to stop by. Praise God for His forgiveness and for His Word and His Holy Spirit within us growing us and transforming us into the image of Christ.

Some days, I realize how far I have to go.

May you have peace and joy in Christ...Susan; 12:34 AM

My Colors Will Be Clear

I am a part of the fellowship of the unashamed. I have Holy Spirit power. The die has been cast. I have stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I'm a disciple of His. I won't look back, let up, slow down, back away, or be still.

My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, my future is secure. I'm finished and done with low living, sight seeing, smooth knees, color-less dreams, tamed visions, mundane talking, "chinchy" giving and dwarfed goals.

I no longer need position, promotions, or popularity. I don't have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised, regarded or rewarded. I now live by presence, learn by faith, walk by patience, lift by prayer, and labor by power.

My face is set, my gait is fast, my destination is heaven, my road is narrow, my way is rough, my companions few. My Guide reliable, my mission clear. I cannot be bought, compromised, detoured, lured away, turned back, deluded or delayed. I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of adversity, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity.

I won't give up, shut up, let up, until I have stayed up, stored up, prayed up, paid up, and preached up for the cause of the One that gave me life, drew the line in blood for me in the hour of my destiny.

I am one of Christ's remnant people. I belong to Him and none other. All I do to bring this life to another is done because of that blood covenant poured out for me.

I must go till He comes, give till I drop, preach till all know, and work till He stops me. I must share will all that one more might hear and be drawn from the flaming darkness that longs to consume. Reach for another, touch but one more!

Until that moment...He will have no problem in recognizing me- my colors will be clear!!!

Not only are the words inspiring but so is the man behind them. The above letter was written by a Pastor in Africa who was undergoing severe persecution. On the eve of his execution he sat down and wrote the above note.

Thursday, June 19, 2014

Imperfect Forgiveness

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