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Friday, August 06, 2010

At a Distance

If feel a distance
A wall
Only silence

I know from Your word
You will never leave
Nor forsake me

Why then
Oh why
Can’t I feel Your presence

Is there sin in my life
Un-confessed
Without repentance

Have I failed to obey You
Put other gods before You
Do I have a haughty spirit

I feel as if I’m in a fog
Somewhere beyond the misty clouds
You are there

Like the sun
Piercing through a fog bank
I long to feel Your presence

By Susan Bunts Wachtel
August 4, 2010

Do you ever go through times…where you just don’t feel God’s presence?

That’s what I’ve been feeling for a little over a week and I’m not sure why? I know with absolute confidence that God is with me. He has promised to never leave nor forsake me. To quote the Psalmist, “If I make my bed in hell, Thou art there.”

While I wait to feel God’s presence once again, I examine myself…to see if there is anything in my thoughts, attitude or actions that are sinful and displeasing to the Lord. Something that has caused a break in fellowship. At times like this…I so long for and desire His presence. He is my life and my joy.

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My Colors Will Be Clear

I am a part of the fellowship of the unashamed. I have Holy Spirit power. The die has been cast. I have stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I'm a disciple of His. I won't look back, let up, slow down, back away, or be still.

My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, my future is secure. I'm finished and done with low living, sight seeing, smooth knees, color-less dreams, tamed visions, mundane talking, "chinchy" giving and dwarfed goals.

I no longer need position, promotions, or popularity. I don't have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised, regarded or rewarded. I now live by presence, learn by faith, walk by patience, lift by prayer, and labor by power.

My face is set, my gait is fast, my destination is heaven, my road is narrow, my way is rough, my companions few. My Guide reliable, my mission clear. I cannot be bought, compromised, detoured, lured away, turned back, deluded or delayed. I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of adversity, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity.

I won't give up, shut up, let up, until I have stayed up, stored up, prayed up, paid up, and preached up for the cause of the One that gave me life, drew the line in blood for me in the hour of my destiny.

I am one of Christ's remnant people. I belong to Him and none other. All I do to bring this life to another is done because of that blood covenant poured out for me.

I must go till He comes, give till I drop, preach till all know, and work till He stops me. I must share will all that one more might hear and be drawn from the flaming darkness that longs to consume. Reach for another, touch but one more!

Until that moment...He will have no problem in recognizing me- my colors will be clear!!!

Not only are the words inspiring but so is the man behind them. The above letter was written by a Pastor in Africa who was undergoing severe persecution. On the eve of his execution he sat down and wrote the above note.

Friday, August 06, 2010

At a Distance

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